Where does my faith lie?
Is it within the logic I rely so heavily or tears that fall
in the goodbyes and new beginnings
maybe in the rain that erodes the structure
or in the sun spilling in through the windows
the ceiling dripping water, so cold
it must be above me
the walls damp, paint peeled and ripped
floors ridden with broken glass, red and far as I can see
around corners and falling from footsteps
as if melting almost
it only gets cooler as I climb higher
hard wood railing, stubborn in its support, guiding me further
where does my faith lie?
On the other side of this door is absolution
but further down the hall I see a win
We used to go back and forth over this, I guess I fell short somewhere
hope carried me this far, waiting for the right moment
but I wanted too much, time passed me by
I could feel my feet getting heavier, my legs unable to move
all I could do was listen, I wanted her to stop
but the beautiful story she told....
why am I so upset, why does she still have this hold over me
I know I put myself in this position, I know I should just stay clear
she sounded so anxious, exited, vulnerable... happy
its all I've ever wanted for her
what I hoped so much she would find
what she was so unsure of with me
in a moment that plays for days
this L
Silence couples with static and heavy breathing
its been so long since this has happened
feeling anxious and searching for those words
hardly knowing, this was the first time
saw her once in a photo
her hair slightly falling over her cheek
that little smirk, she speaks with such confidence
so comfortable as she playfully jokes
nervous as hell I ask what questions I can scrounge up
I just sat there laughing
but it was all I could do
'lets keep the ball going' she says
I tried but it dropped
she's been hurt, I could tell right from the start
hesitant, reluctant, I asked
broken from engagement
going out of her way for something s
your words seem so distant from me now
i want to know the feeling again
not wanting to let you go
its my fault time filled this empty space
and the times i look up and wonder
i know you're carrying on just fine
new experiences take the place of better times
i know i'm doing fine
but its not the same without you
hope seems to leave me
even now as i remember
regret wonders the miles between
i should stop
but you're all i have to reach to
Leaving another night without your voice
Leaving another moment without your kiss
Never hesitant, never looking back
Your memory, your smile
I hope to God they never leave
I miss falling into you
I miss the way you used to look at me
Good times seem so far from now
When we were happy and the world wasn't after us
I feel used, betrayed
Fallen
You were never there to pick me back up
How gullible I was
Sifting through your deceit
I find myself at a crossroads
Letting you go couldn't make me happier
Letting you go wouldn't
I'm too selfish, go figure
I'm beginning to think it'll never go away
Regret for trust never granted
Ful
i can't escape you
i tried but i guess all i did was avoid
creeping by in these halls
i can't help but get noticed
your memory still grips tight
i try to push back regret
but it pierces still
i wonder if it shows
how lost I really am
i wonder if my eyes still reflect your face
my choices, your tears
i cant will legs to move anymore
will you keep me here
i want to see you happy again
know that it isn't me there
i never want to forget what I did to you
drown out my cries
i hear your voice still
and i can't wait to see your hand in his
to feel my heart sink as you walk by with that smile
it's been so long and my heart still h
"The memory of you now
Seems like fading moments
Passing by..."
burning in my mind
breaking from my grasp
the times we shared
together and apart
the sound of your whisper in the dark
your touch as you pulled me from doubt
i still remember when i tore your heart
the setting of our first kiss
the first time i ever lied to you
when you fell into my arms
how i tore up your letters
and taped them back together
every time i ignored you
the sleepless nights talking on the phone
the look on your face when i snapped back
how cute you looked with those glasses
the pictures we took
and every time we didnt
the begging and pleading
t
Wishing I could find the words to say to you
Regretting that I had to leave
I'm sorry that I did
You don't make me nervous
I just don't know what to say
If there is anything to be said at all
It isn't that we can't be together
Do you still feel the same way?
' I just don't want to lose you again'
I replay that night in my head
When you weren't trying to push
When every kiss wasn't long enough
I couldn't resist you
When you asked why
How I could ever bring myself to love you
It tore me apart
You do something to me
You bring me back down
I never have to worry
You are the only thing I never had to think about
I love you
I push and push only to find
A mass that refuses to move
So thick with pain and regret
Plastered with warnings
But I still press on
I know it wasnt you that built such a wall
Even as I stand in your path
You refuse to tear this down
Ive walked the darkest roads
Soaked with the tears Ive invoked
Ive returned with clarity
-now- youre ready
I have no excuse for past events
I had to lose you once to see things as clearly as I do now
Pathetic isnt it?
Call me stubborn, way to damn persistent
Crazy and that Im wasting my time
It doesnt mean Im going anywhere
I could never forget about you
Id like to think I dont dwell on the past
Id like to think Im saying the right things
I know my words will always fall short with you
The mistakes Ive made
The steps I took to get here
I couldnt imagine things being any different
I walked back into your life
The events to follow threw us back
In time I know Ill get the chance to show you
Im here, and even if you dont want me
Ill say, everything I meant and more because
I know, Im in love and for the first time
I feel, Im where Im suppose to be
With you
Where does my faith lie?
Is it within the logic I rely so heavily or tears that fall
in the goodbyes and new beginnings
maybe in the rain that erodes the structure
or in the sun spilling in through the windows
the ceiling dripping water, so cold
it must be above me
the walls damp, paint peeled and ripped
floors ridden with broken glass, red and far as I can see
around corners and falling from footsteps
as if melting almost
it only gets cooler as I climb higher
hard wood railing, stubborn in its support, guiding me further
where does my faith lie?
On the other side of this door is absolution
but further down the hall I see a win
We used to go back and forth over this, I guess I fell short somewhere
hope carried me this far, waiting for the right moment
but I wanted too much, time passed me by
I could feel my feet getting heavier, my legs unable to move
all I could do was listen, I wanted her to stop
but the beautiful story she told....
why am I so upset, why does she still have this hold over me
I know I put myself in this position, I know I should just stay clear
she sounded so anxious, exited, vulnerable... happy
its all I've ever wanted for her
what I hoped so much she would find
what she was so unsure of with me
in a moment that plays for days
this L
Silence couples with static and heavy breathing
its been so long since this has happened
feeling anxious and searching for those words
hardly knowing, this was the first time
saw her once in a photo
her hair slightly falling over her cheek
that little smirk, she speaks with such confidence
so comfortable as she playfully jokes
nervous as hell I ask what questions I can scrounge up
I just sat there laughing
but it was all I could do
'lets keep the ball going' she says
I tried but it dropped
she's been hurt, I could tell right from the start
hesitant, reluctant, I asked
broken from engagement
going out of her way for something s
your words seem so distant from me now
i want to know the feeling again
not wanting to let you go
its my fault time filled this empty space
and the times i look up and wonder
i know you're carrying on just fine
new experiences take the place of better times
i know i'm doing fine
but its not the same without you
hope seems to leave me
even now as i remember
regret wonders the miles between
i should stop
but you're all i have to reach to
Leaving another night without your voice
Leaving another moment without your kiss
Never hesitant, never looking back
Your memory, your smile
I hope to God they never leave
I miss falling into you
I miss the way you used to look at me
Good times seem so far from now
When we were happy and the world wasn't after us
I feel used, betrayed
Fallen
You were never there to pick me back up
How gullible I was
Sifting through your deceit
I find myself at a crossroads
Letting you go couldn't make me happier
Letting you go wouldn't
I'm too selfish, go figure
I'm beginning to think it'll never go away
Regret for trust never granted
Ful
i can't escape you
i tried but i guess all i did was avoid
creeping by in these halls
i can't help but get noticed
your memory still grips tight
i try to push back regret
but it pierces still
i wonder if it shows
how lost I really am
i wonder if my eyes still reflect your face
my choices, your tears
i cant will legs to move anymore
will you keep me here
i want to see you happy again
know that it isn't me there
i never want to forget what I did to you
drown out my cries
i hear your voice still
and i can't wait to see your hand in his
to feel my heart sink as you walk by with that smile
it's been so long and my heart still h
"The memory of you now
Seems like fading moments
Passing by..."
burning in my mind
breaking from my grasp
the times we shared
together and apart
the sound of your whisper in the dark
your touch as you pulled me from doubt
i still remember when i tore your heart
the setting of our first kiss
the first time i ever lied to you
when you fell into my arms
how i tore up your letters
and taped them back together
every time i ignored you
the sleepless nights talking on the phone
the look on your face when i snapped back
how cute you looked with those glasses
the pictures we took
and every time we didnt
the begging and pleading
t
Wishing I could find the words to say to you
Regretting that I had to leave
I'm sorry that I did
You don't make me nervous
I just don't know what to say
If there is anything to be said at all
It isn't that we can't be together
Do you still feel the same way?
' I just don't want to lose you again'
I replay that night in my head
When you weren't trying to push
When every kiss wasn't long enough
I couldn't resist you
When you asked why
How I could ever bring myself to love you
It tore me apart
You do something to me
You bring me back down
I never have to worry
You are the only thing I never had to think about
I love you
I push and push only to find
A mass that refuses to move
So thick with pain and regret
Plastered with warnings
But I still press on
I know it wasnt you that built such a wall
Even as I stand in your path
You refuse to tear this down
Ive walked the darkest roads
Soaked with the tears Ive invoked
Ive returned with clarity
-now- youre ready
I have no excuse for past events
I had to lose you once to see things as clearly as I do now
Pathetic isnt it?
Call me stubborn, way to damn persistent
Crazy and that Im wasting my time
It doesnt mean Im going anywhere
I could never forget about you
Id like to think I dont dwell on the past
Id like to think Im saying the right things
I know my words will always fall short with you
The mistakes Ive made
The steps I took to get here
I couldnt imagine things being any different
I walked back into your life
The events to follow threw us back
In time I know Ill get the chance to show you
Im here, and even if you dont want me
Ill say, everything I meant and more because
I know, Im in love and for the first time
I feel, Im where Im suppose to be
With you
The two girls were at home. Clarity was moping, Erica was eating, their little sister Josie was watching iCarly, and their brother Johnny was walking in the room.
"Josie, give me the remote!" He said.
"No."
"Yes! Kimora Lee Simmons is on TV!!"
"I am not giving up my TV time so that you can stare at some model you have a crush on who isn't that much younger than Mom and has kids older than me!" Josie shouted with all the fire a five-year-old can muster up.
"Well!" Johnny said and walked out of the room, obviously surprised and offended by Josie's outburst.
"Mom." Erica said between bites of food. "You need to get more of this stuf
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